Praying with Desire.

The tears that flowed as the final goodbye was said to my family and my boyfriend were the last tears I have cried thus far and those tears were filled with more pain than I had expected to ever feel. Almost as if I was never going to see them again. But the journey began the moment I stepped onto that plane that would take me to Lima. It was interesting because that was the first time i felt vulnerable to the outside world and that was when this adventure began. I left the comfort of Rebecca's care at about three in the morning on Monday morning (and I am still sorry about that Rebecca.. You are an amazing friend!) I did not arrive in Pucallpa, Peru until eight in the morning Tuesday morning and that day alone was the most emotion filled day I have felt in just one day. But we finally made it, Andrew (the fearless adventurer), Jasmine (the independent/voice), Victor (the helpful amigo), and me (when I figure out what I am I will let you know.) 

We have experienced a lot in the short time period we have been here. And I am not even going to lie, doubts came and went through my head on what I was doing here and wanting the comfort of home again. It's a rough way of living for me but to think that this is still a luxury for some.

Where we live is called km 8, which is a clinic. Well, more like a wooden structure, which has dividers for the pharmacy, doctors office, and (soon-to-be) dental office. We live in the house (wooden structure) next to the clinic. This house is awesome… it has the essentials a roof and hammocks (ha.) We do get bunk beds and the cushions that protect us from the wood makes me miss the beds from La Sierra terribly (BUT no complaining.. we're blessed to even have cushions.) It's interesting because we do our own cooking and that's been an adventure of it's own! We do not have running water (but we are praying that soon and very soon.) We have already run into days where have no water at all but we are able to be flexible and patient.

All four of us are already trained and "prepared" for the months to come and they trained us in less than a week! Our teachers taught us, had us practice once, and BAM! we were ready for patients.

RIDICULOUS! We are trained to give shots (and we are already administering them), IVs (and we had our first real patience other than ourselves today), sutures, clean wounds, nail extractions, ear cleaning, and now even labor (TA?.. inside joke)! Today, I gave a 5 ml injection to a little baby boy and it hurt me more than it hurt him. I do not want to cause them pain only make them smile :[ Well, things here are moving fast and I do have to stop and breathe sometimes because the fact that I am in PERU, in the AMAZON, in the JUNGLE does not seem real… But when I look at my body and ALL of the CHIGGER and Mosquito bites I am quickly snapped into reality. I never thought I would dislike something more than mosquitos… those darn chiggers are definitely going to be the death of me. 

The desire to be a part of something big brought me here.

The desire to help people that I normally couldn't also did.

God's desire is much greater. He has plans and I am quickly able to see them.

It's exciting everything He has already opened my eyes to see here.

I do miss Darkness and my Family and I desire to be with them.

But I am praying with more desire than before.

Praying with passion&desire.

o.